I look good doing it

So I held off from writing about the weekend because it was another set of let downs.

I totally blew in the 10k skate to my worse carnival finish ever(which used to be a stronger event for me) worked into an ok pace in the 20k classic and thought I was doing a lot better than I ended up. Again good skis. Again feeling good warming up and in training. I dunno.

Stuck around Placid for Saturday night with a really messed up back (from classic race) to watch World Cup Aerials, which were actually really sweet. Got to hangout with the alpiners and the lady friend. Woke up Sunday morning in horrible pain with my shooting pains in my back. Laid around on the heat pad on Sunday and watched some football. Took Monday off as well. Tuesday I can honestly say that the whole team skied as easily and as smart as we have all year. A lot of the guys are having the same problem finding race form. We have all took a step back to look at our training (which has been great) and see how we were going to make it work.

For the first time this season I really felt like crap training and was wondering what the hell I am doing. I am hitting the wall. I have worked through the tough times with no problem through my roller coaster "career" but the low blows have really taken their toll. I woke up super achy this morning and exhausted. Today I was supposed to do intervals up opted for an easy ski instead hoping that I can turn the corner for intervals on Friday. I shuffled around today stopping every few minutes to be pissed, but it was too nice out at the Higley flow. Cold, clear, new snow over pine needles and dirt. hahah but seriously it was nice out there.

To get my chi or che or whatever its called, in line we re arranged the room tonight. I am proud to say that I have come out of the closet! (why does that sound funny?) haha I made the closet my office with a desk and everything!

So yeah the only good thing so far this race season has been the sweet pictures (except of the guy with ears on his hat passing me, and the one of me slipping on classic skis). Every time I have races poorly I have done something stupid. I painted my toenails (thanks Sophie...), pierced my ear, grew a moustache, all in the hope to force myself into race form, rather than look as good as a model. Now I look like a metrosexual pirate.

Also I have no clue what I am going to do with my life next year... yikes. One more semester, four more carnivals, 8 races (one of them being a sprint) and my best hope of a good results at the Dartmouth 20k has been switched to a mass start classic race. Bummer. Well that's enough bitching for now. Happier things to come I hope.

Wheels keep rolling

Canton to Calais, to Burke, to Manchester, to Calais, to Stowe, to Canton, to Michigan, to Canton, to Rumford, to Canton... All in the last month. lots of bad weather, fast food, bad drivers (Kalie Dunn), bad results. I'm not sick of it yet.

Another off day again Yesterday. Good skis and kick though. Feeling a lot better though, glimmers of hope. The team is struggling with me though.

Back at school now, only sports teams are here. We had an awesome day of training in Rumford with blue skis and firm snow. Pepper was throwing 360s over everything and we straightlined some sweet backcountry lines. I love skiing at Rumford. Anyway training here this week before our carnival. Rest day tomorrow. Trying to makes the pieces fit.

bad yet again

Well not really just me this time either. Most of the team tanked today and we were cleanly beaten. This is coming off easily the best Fall of training that we have had since I have been here. It doesn't add up. I am struggling to find daylight after the last few weeks. There are no excuses. I have had good skis, I am healthy again, tons of rest, tons of sleep... I don't know whats going on. I feel flat, my tempo is slow. blah. Training I feel great, snappy, peppy, full of energy. I guess its just not clicking in races. This is the worse string of results I have had since I have been in college by far. My first weekend of racing in college started here at Black Mountain. I was 10th. Today I was 35th.

Freshman year I would have been throwing wax benches and pouting. This year it doesn't even phase me. I have gained control reaction but lack whatever it was that made me ski like a mad man before.

It's frustrating. I don't know there have been tons of funny things I wish I could write about, epic adventures on the road. I don't know maybe I will do it tomorrow.

blah

so this is a quick one while I have internet. We are back in Canton for a night after a horrible drive through Canadian fog and rain. The races were pretty bad. I dunno I wasn't snappy didn't feel very good, just not good. Not much else to say. I was going to do the team sprint but the kid from western state that I was supposed to race with left early so I just trained. Had some ok intervals today in soft snow on the drive back. Headed to Rumford tomorrow. A bigger update soon.

Well I dunno

So as we were driving back to the hotel this afternoon I realized that I have done worse at Nationals every year since my freshman year... Not that I have gotten that much slower, just not as fast. or something. I dunno. 116th today in a hilly 10k skate, which used to be my bread and butter. I have no excuses, I just felt really flat and awkward.

Christmas break was really fun, didn't get in the greatest training but rested up well. Did a lot of bird hunting. Didn't get any birds. Got in a few good skis with Isaac at the end of break then met up with Kalie for the drive to SLU where we stayed at Ethan's. Got up early and started the drive to Michigan, made pretty good time even though it was a bit boring.

Felt good yesterday when I was training so I don't know what is up, it was my first race of the year so maybe I just need to race more. I don't know.

Anyway Sac raced pretty well a bit ahead of me. Vargo wasn't too happy with his race even though I Ethan said he was skiing well, it's clear he is in damn good shape so SLUski is looking forward to throwing down hopefully in the coming days. Kalie raced well on the girls side and Robin is a bit sick so she didn't race. Anyway that about it, I am exhausted and hungry, I will write something witty once I pull it together.